Ok. This one’s a fucking doozy. My loves. My babes. My sweet and terrible heartbreakers. It’s a reckoning. But I promise you, even with the faith as small as a mustard seed, we can come out of this with more certainty, balance, and authenticity than ever before.
Here we go.
Raise a hand if you struggle with trust issues. Ok. Raise your other hand if you’ve got at least one person in your life you can trust. Those of you with both hands up, keep them up and go look in a mirror. What does that look like?
Trust is not surrender. Trust is not about knowing or believing someone will never hurt you. In fact, if someone ever says that to you, you might not want to trust them. Trust is not forgiveness after they’ve hurt you. Trust does not belong to another person. Trust is in you and in order for you to trust someone else you have got to trust yourself. I mean you need to know, without a shadow of a doubt, that if/when that “someone” fucks up – you can either truly accept it or you can walk away immediately. That is how you trust someone. You respect yourself.
This moon is full with everything that’s happened over the past two weeks. At it’s fullest point it will be exactly conjunct with Eris (discord) and nearly conjunct Uranus. This bundle of wild and emotional energy is squaring Pluto (upheaval, shadow) who is sitting shoulder to shoulder with Mars (war and sex). This combination tells me there is going to be a clearing. Hidden things will be revealed, balance will be challenged, and a massive change is under way. The term “breakthrough” comes to mind. That sounds good, right?
To have a breakthrough there’s often first an intervention. An intervention happens because things can no long go on the way they have been going. Full stop. I see this breakthrough happening verbally. Someone is going to show you who they really are and it might not be pretty. What are you going to do with that?
So it hurts, you suffer, but you are not ready to confront this directly. Assertiveness seems to come through when you feel like you have a place in the world. You assert your right to be there, wherever you are. Mercury following the Sun through Libra urges us to have a balance in how we assert ourselves in communication. This is not a time to be passive aggressive OR aggressive. This is your intervention. Be quiet. Listen. When it’s time, there is only one word you have to say.
Yes? Or no.
Things are changing so fast. We can’t keep up. We want to take action. Righteous action. But maybe right now being right isn’t much better than being wrong. What’s the better end of a shit sandwich?
The moon is asking you to sit with it. Feel that brutal tension. Understand it as the greatest form of integrity. The tension between what you want and what you have. The tension between who you are and how you’re treated. The decisions you make amidst great uncertainty show you what you’re actually about. Show yourself that you can trust yourself to make good decisions. The stars have your back.
Thank you to all of the friends and strangers who have taken the time out of their day to send me sweet notes, voicemails, and text messages. It feels great to share some of the work I feel called to do and to be held by my community and beyond. You make me feel like I can’t fail. I’m happy to be of service and humbled by the words you have given me. I want to make a promise to you. I promise to be obedient to the call of spirit. I hope you will join me in making or renewing this promise to the work you feel called to do in the world. Wether it is to embark on finding what that calling is or to refocus yourself on the true expression of your spirit. Thank you. ❤