Aquarius New Moon

Discomfort.

We’ve entered a place in time where, for many reasons, we can not allow to persist. What I hope to get to in this brief lunation is the location of our discomfort and where the lark of creative strategy may sing. The water we bear is not the world but what is in us that is of the world. We can not bear it all. It is not your fault and it isn’t mine. It is a responsibility. The responsibility to make imprecise attempts at describing real things. Things we all believe to be real.

To me, art is the closest attempt at finding this real thing, this reality. Art gathers all of our faculties, whether creating or witnessing, and compels us to connect, to study, and even to reveal something we’ve never known. It can connect us to that loose thread of truth. It is a powerful attempt to convey or understand a message that one couldn’t possibly say or hear without art’s powerful presence. Venus elicits these urges to put forth your lonesome experience and to connect with another alienated body. Not so that they may be understood, but so that misunderstanding can be seen and recognized as strange or familiar. So they (the art, witness, and creator) can be simultaneously marvelous and uncertain and real. Venus in Pisces tells me we could do this together. Collective creativity is possible. Faced with so many different and urgent dangers we need to be as creative as possible.

Freedom is another imprecise word. Many have never experienced this thing, freedom, so the existence of it is dubius. It is a feeling, a location, a thing to get – the struggle for which is universal. The aquarius new moon is here, I believe, to help us bear the unsettling burden of just how far we are from safety and how it may bring us closer to understanding this word, freedom.  

Freedom in the United States is often associated with the frontier, a new expanse of space, uncharted, rugged, and alone. As we know now in this 21st century, that ‘frontier’ was already occupied, so then, a frontier (and possibly the western idea of freedom) becomes a colonial, conquering thing. With this as our heritage in the western world it is important to frame freedom in a way that is not at any one person’s expense. So, in asking what will we do, we also should ask, what will we never ever do. Saturn brings the rules for this game. It’s residence in Sagittarius makes rule number one – dedicate yourself to learning more. Define your discipline around understanding and applying the information you are receiving, whether it be through books, teachers, or mistakes. It is wildly important, in creating solutions for oppressive systems, to try our very best to not replicate or invest in the very thing we are trying to fight.

The square of Saturn and Venus is an irreconcilable conflict. To make art often requires a disregard of the rules. Creativity cannot live confined to old ways. Yet Saturn makes us aware of the problem of unyielding ignorance. The best advice I can offer here is to know that in both circumstances, in both study and creation, there is a point where you must let it go. For art, for homes, and our children, for time, and money, it is only useful when we can let it go. None of it is only ours. It is a risk, bringing anything into the day and night of existence, and at some point we are all called to do so, and when you do choose to take up your vocation, you must bring it to the world in all of its brutality and wisdom. Maybe in this connection of the art, the witness, the maker, regardless of whether or not it is actually collaborative or fair or nice, we can experience a small moment of finding a part of ourselves that may be in fact a part of who we all are.

Cancer Full Moon

There is an old saying, you can not fill anyone else’s cup until yours is full.

Picture with me, a cup in your hands, picture it’s size, it’s shape, it’s color and texture. This is the vessel that holds the fulfillment of your emotional needs. Any ounce of water, tea, coffee, whatever that is in your cup belongs to YOU. Anything that spills over belongs to someone else.

If you give anything from what is inside your cup, before it is full, you make those people out to be thieves.

The first full moon of the year is important. This is a time of accounting and making our own value system which is important in a time where a day in the world seems more like an episode of the twilight zone.

This moon is one about protection and devotion. It is conjunct with the brightly burning Vesta. Whether it be devotion to an identity, protection of privacy, or your world view, there is some need to draw a line in the sand. The buck stops where the sacred and profane begin.

I used the cup visualization to create a frame that helps us keep in mind what we have control over and what we do not. Our bodies, our minds, and our emotional well being are the priorities that are paramount in this world. Each of our needs look different and all of us require communities and social services to keep these things healthy. Fill your cup first.

Still, under this moon people who have been socialized as caregivers can falter when it comes to being self sacrificial – wanting everyone to have a good time or fighting for a good cause, with no regard to what they actually are wanting. These people don’t feel their needs to be strong enough to be it’s own cause.

The moon asks you to center you and your needs as sacred worship to the temple your ancestors built for you. They also ask you to understand that systems of oppression are made to convince society that the disorder of oppression is order. Please remember this.

Another side to this is people coming out of the woodwork for causes that are more systemic than the surface problems that they are reacting to. People who are experiencing scarcity, instability, and fear who are not accustomed to it in their daily lives may be prone to throwing themselves into efforts to regain control over their circumstances.

There can be a lack of analysis or critical discernment when it comes to activism due to very inflammatory information.  Coming across as austere or holier than thou is not a good look right now.A lot of people have been suffering for a very long time, a lot of people have been fighting, now is no different to them than any other. Let all that spills over go to those who have none.

I said the moon is, in part, about devotion. A good part of devotion is study. If your being called to action, whether it is self work, political work, or creative work, chances are a great deal of emotion is being pushed through this work. Pairing this with diligent study creates a sustainable practice and greater articulates the purpose of the work. Sink yourself into it, become steadfast in the work. If your work reckons with the injustice in the world , your art, your activism, your hoeing and cruising is sacred work.  May your waters always be flowing and your fire stay lit.

If you need to fall into a hole of letter writing and political campaigning to assuage your fear, by all means. If you need to roll into the street and break some glass and burn some trash, get it goin.  It does not mean that the world must follow. It does not mean that anyone who doesn’t do what you do is a part of the opposition. It just shows where your priorities are and how you must meet them. Again, fill your cup girl.

If you BEEN workin the dystopia, pay no mind to the brand new artists or activists popping up trying your patience. The moon and Vesta encourages you to bein your dwellings, nest up, rest up, an rejuvenate yourself babe. Hold fast to the boundaries and take thy self to the temple, spa, and hot tub, and thaw them bones.

 

As always, receive care, take this moon in, take no shit, and suffer no fools. Don’t be pushed into doing things that aren’t apart of taking care of yourself. Build these protections around your communities and those that are most affected by the horror that threatens you.

 

***Artwork:

kx’i’m, k’a’min  —
(my) our storage basket, (our) my body

collage
12 x 12 inches
2012

by Genius Artist and PhD Scholar, Sarah Biscarra Dilley,  whose work explores the spaces between the worlds; between blood sickness and bloodlines, between grief and joy, between body and land. Visit her work at: sarahbiscarradilley.com

 

*** Side note:

+A dad holding  shotgun to his daughter’s date is NOT protection. It is ownership. It is patriarchal. When I say protect those most affected I mean prioritize their voices in your work. Believe them, hold their truth as your own, and fight as long and often as they do.

+We can protect and preserve what is ours through many ways but one thing is for sure, it won’t be done through coercion, bullying, or false prophesying.

 

New Moon In Capricorn

Show Up

 

There are a lot of unknowns out there in the world right now. The clarity in chaos is an understanding of what we stand to lose. Some of us have lost a lot this year. Some of us have a lot to lose.

 

The question that arises is “What will we consciously risk to gain ourselves?” And even more “What is this “self” we should risk everything for?”

 

To survive the worst the world has to offer we it’s a good idea to be rooted in our original gifts and talents. This is where we find our personal power and Capricorn is all about harnessing our personal power. Some confusion may arise around our actual goals and needs. Some of us are conditioned to be self sacrificial, to care for others before ourselves. In a time where we need to be 100 percent on our healing game, these caregivers, however natural or unnatural the tendency is, can burn the fuck out.

 

Ambitious Capricorn and free wheeling Mercury in retrograde offer us a time to deeply consider how we talk to each other, how people talk to us, and our communion with the earth. New moon in Capricorn wants us to clear the ground so we have something to build on and draw up the blueprints so we can stay on track. Having this conjunct a Mercury retrograde can initially be confusing, but at it’s best we can find areas where we are sure of things and other areas where we aren’t. Once we’ve identified those areas we can focus on our strengths and build from there. Keep these strengths in mind in your daily conversation. Watch who speaks to them and those who do not. Take note.

 

This  can be an important time for solitude, which isn’t to say to be alone or lonely, but rather to have time to yourself and make sure you seek out your own approval before anyone else’s. That way, regardless of what feelings arise, your actions can reflect your intentions. This way we can honor our feelings and live up to our responsibilities at the same time. While in your solitude study a master in a field you are interested in. Find out not only what they do, but how they do it, who they do it with, and their struggles to reach their goals. Become intimate with this process.

 

The new year comes a little early with this new moon as it calls for  time of review, purging, and planning. Saturn (structure) will be in harmony with Uranus (innovation) beginning this month. This gives us an important boost in not only clearing out what is unnecessary but also energy to make positive changes in your life. This starts 2017 with new found responsibility towards yourself and those you are in community with.

Full Moon in Gemini

 

“Your silence will not protect you.”

Audre Lorde

 

 

    Gemini keeps it light. Not light like sunshine and rainbows, but light like a reporter in war time. Detached but engaged, with but not of, understanding, gathering, unraveling. It is a daunting task, to witness everything. All of it. The whole world, every being, every interaction, every idea, theory, and thought. Even with two heads and four eyes, the Gemini struggles with this impossible task. So what keeps the Gemini going? Curiosity. Insatiable curiosity. It is just as vital to the twins as talking. They talk as naturally as molecules bond, as breath breathes, and hearts beat.

    With all these skills comes a shadow that gained Gemini a reputation that sticks. Gemini’s job is to observe, collect, and reflect. Within this process there is little room for judgement. In it’s highest form, the Gemini is a mirror, sharing the information as accurately and interestingly as possible.  This can be stone cold – especially when one is forced to confront a hard truth that may not correspond with their beliefs. It seems almost criminal to bore this air sign, let alone bring them down. Gemini, whose magic is working words, can and will help us construct the facts in a way that portrays a truth to their liking, never confronting what is standing in front of them.

    Gemini is a sign that also rules neighbors. In this time I think it is important to remember that collectively held beliefs are powerful. While Gemini is here to gather information, it isn’t here to make meaning or beliefs out of it. When meaning is applied to collectively shared information it takes on an entirely different role. I can see this time to be one of inquiry about the difference between truth and fact. I can see people shoring up their beliefs with assertions of “fact” deeming all other experiences as invalid out of fear of their own experience being invalidated. White supremacy, sexism, ableism, and nationalism all bank on a collective “truth” based on “facts” rooted in systems of oppression.

    Truth can be the coupling of human intelligence and the cold hard facts of the world. I know that truth cannot exist without either. I also know that the pursuit of the Gemini’s path is Sisyphean in the sense that gather all of the world’s facts are impossible. We must make our truth with what is in front of us – with what we are able to gather, and our personal intelligence as constantly incomplete things. What do you know? What do you see? And finally, how do you feel? The significance with the moon here is a fierce protection of one’s feelings by constructing a truth around it. This can be radical. This can be destructive. It can be both.

    “Speaking truth to power”, a term coined by civil rights leader Bayard Rustin, is something that is very important in this time in history. When we feel/are crazy for wanting to be treated with respect, to have a chance to live and thrive, to be safe in our homes and in the world, we must speak out against the forces and people that keep these rights from being actualities.

    The question that remains is who or what to we speak to? To what power is responsibility for our suffering?

    For answers we can look to the trine with Mars and Jupiter. Mars is the action and Jupiter is the bigger picture. We need them both so bad right now. Mars in Aquarius is intelligently assertive which works beautifully with Gemini (any Outkast fans out there know this). Jupiter in Libra can bring about a larger order through cooperation, encouragement, and art. The shadows of each are Mars’ expression of Aquarius’ rebellion thwarting the potential of significant achievements and Jupiter’s magnification on Libra’s indecisiveness. We can find ourselves searching for all clues around a conflict and never landing on a decision or stance. We can see something as clearly wrong but not confront it because it’s too obvious and it will take care of itself. I definitely think a time to make a concerted effort has come. I think it comes with a discovery of subjective vision where it was once unshakable truth. We may use Libra’s balance to understand many sides to truth, we may use Aquarius to sharpen our unique understanding of it. We use the moon as our guide and receive nurturance through this exploration of facts and fictions. We can find the truth to speak to that power in a truth that allows for people to each have their own experience of things. A truth that leaves room for taking in new information and has room for dissent.

    While the twins are known for their gift of gab the full moon is a time of reception. You probably know what you have to say. It’s probably the right thing to say. But now is the time to ask questions. To listen. To engage the curiosity and satisfy it with simply asking your questions. In a great conversation the role of speaking is only important to be able  listen more. Do not be silent. Never be silent. But don’t stop listening either.

    Take in the data of your life and do some accounting. What facts do you construct to tell your truth? Are you building your truth because it is being actively erased by community, society and state? Or are you building it because it is convenient defense for you ego? How can we create collective truths, powerful truth with our neighbors that reach towards liberation and freedom? How can we commit to curiosity in the face of dogma?

    Saturn square Chiron is known to spur some childhood wounds and open us up to an incredible opportunity for spiritual development. You have an opportunity to see and experience more than you imagine.

    We close this year with death and destruction. As creatures on this planet, we were born, live, and die with a constant cycle of winters. My heart goes out to all who have lost loved ones, friends, family, and feel like they’re losing themselves. I am so proud of the communities here in Oakland and of the world that organize out of love, grief, and compassion towards each other, the earth, and the right for both to thrive creatively, passionately, and sincerely.

 

 

xoxoxo,

diego

Sagittarius New Moon

You gotta fight for your right to party.

 

Ok, so now we know. We got through the dark moon, we got the download, we got the shadow. So what now?

Let’s get lit.

I mean, since we’ve got to live with these devils, be they personal or national, might as well keep on living right? So when I say live what do I mean?

The archer pulls back on the arrow, a target in sight, she sees the distance, lifts that point to the sky, and what? Holds on for a minute? Nah. She lets go.

Some might call her crazy. She looks like she’s aiming for a star, a cloud, a vastness of sky. They might say “can’t you see what’s right in front of you?” With her experience and self assurance she aims, she steadies, and she lets go. She knows the course, the field, and still they’ll say she aimed too high. As she makes her arrow a bridge between heaven and earth, she knows, at some point in the future, that arrow will hit and strike true.  This new moon in Sagittarius we look towards what’s right, the highest possible good, and we set our sights on that.

However, without a specific aim, great leaps into action can become tragic missteps.

This moment requires great leaps, Sagittarius is the ruler of overseas travel, so we must have a specific aim. What we aim for right now is how to make meaning in this world out of our personal desires. In the full moon two weeks ago I asked you to get in touch with your senses. What did that bring up? How does that shape your philosophy on love? On joy?

Neptune is a great fog of illusion and disassociation. It can cloud our judgement. It can prevent us from seeing a future or make us over idealize a future. It can bog us down with feelings up hopelessness and then ask us escape the reality, put aside our principles, and just chill, man -it’ll all work out in the end. While, yes, time goes on and things ebb and flow, the new moon is telling you – chillin is cool, but living is lit as fuck.

Sagittarius is serious about integral joy. We need to know how to be happy in good times and bad, we need love before and after the apocalypse. Without this, we break down and become vulnerable to the corruption of those that try to bind us. Our ideals become objects no longer in our agency. Our principles become matters of convenience. Our joy becomes obedience to those who do not have our minds and hearts as priorities. Without something to live for we lose everything.

We must value our joy now more than ever. This means being able to drink clean water, this means free exchange of ideas, this means time for leisure, this means walking in the street without fear of death or injury. We must be preachers in the pulpit of ecstasy. Soldiers of love. Protectors of  all that sustains our individual freedoms and collective liberation in the spirit of sexual, emotional, and psychological autonomy. Aim by being responsible for your personal joy. We have to fight for fun. 

Supermoon in Taurus

Stay

 

We guard ourselves from danger. We guard our family from threat. We guard our people from hate. We must not guard ourselves from the truth.

Sweet Taurus is a slow burn, a steadfast and still stone of a bull, one who savors and stabilizes. It has real staying power. What does it mean to have this moon come at this time?

Taurus feelings typically have a lot to do with possession and security. While it can be poised and stable when pushed with external demands, the other side to the coin is it’s death grip on what brings it comfort against the brashness of the world.

In uncertain times, Taurus may want to bring things back to the way they’re “supposed to be” whether that be under an Obama administration, Reagan era, or in complete subversion of the two. Taurus wants to go back to whenever there was a time where it felt in control and secure. Taurus wants a pillow fort, enclosed in a room in a house behind a wall with a moat and a drawbridge. Another sign of security for the Taurus is material possessions. Food security, health security, and emotional security are paramount and having resources is vital for that to exist.

For some, most of your life has been an accomplishment of security, your home, your family, your routine is something you feel you’ve worked hard for; you’ve earned it. For some, no matter how hard you’ve worked, stability and safety have only been in brief memories.

Security is not an achievement.

It isn’t something fought for and won. It is a measure of distance between you, and whatever threatens you or what you love. There is a lot more to it than a job, a dog, and house with a locking door (although all of those things sure help!). The feeling of security is not correlated to that distance. For example, someone may have a fear of flying in an airplane but drives in a car every day. The measure of threat is significantly higher in a car than on a plane. There is a feeling of safety in a car because it is familiar. It is a human psychological condition to go with an unhealthy known problem than to step out and pursue a better unknown possibility.

So here we are together, going down this road that we have taken for so many years, and we’ve arrived here at this moment in this place. We ask ourselves, how did we get here? This is not safe. This is not where we belong.

We search to find where we went of the road but we see nothing but pavement behind us. We see the rational decisions we’ve made to survive, to ensure our security, to stay comfortable behind locked doors. What we knew but somehow forgotten is that whatever is happening to the people outside of those locked doors could happen to us. The measure from the threat to our bodies has closed and we’ve easily put fear in the driver’s seat. The road we’ve followed led us here and now our only true material possessions, our lives, bodies, and agency, are at risk.

Taurus has a lesson for us. Have you ever heard the term “come to your senses?”. Isn’t it interesting, in a society that teaches us that choosing the best of two evils is just “being realistic”, “coming to our senses” is a colloquialism for a return to reality? What are your senses telling you? Feel your feelings. The anger, the sadness – the hope? What do you actually choose when the choice is broadened from a two way street to an entire horizon? The question is how to we find our agency in a time of where things seem so unsure? How can we be steadfast and strong in upheaval?

I believe Octavia Butler to be a prophet for our time. From the fictitious religion Earthseed found in the books Parable of the Sower and Parable of the Talents comes a central tenet that “God is Change”. It is rooted in the idea that every person has the potential power to change the course of their life and their survival.  Earthseed is a religion for the future. It is the idea that all seeds of the Earth can be transplanted and adapt. When we consider the carbon tipping point, the current political landscape, and the terrorizing of the land I wonder about the belief of Butler’s fictional philosophy:  “The Destiny of Earthseed / Is to take root among the stars”. Regardless I hope we can root in a steadfast and secure path of change, to be attuned to our senses, and to truly possess our lives and our bodies.

“All that you touch

You Change.

All that you Change

Changes you.

The only lasting truth

Is Change.

God

Is Change”

– Parable of the Sower

When we understand that the world is ever-changing and we place our faith in our own agency, our senses, and our livelihood we can channel Taurus energy is a way that doesn’t allow for our head to be in the sand a moment longer. We get to understand that true security is the risk of staying, being present with your senses, and claiming what is yours.

Under this full moon I ask you to take in this information and look for a path that is truly secure for all of us. We may not know what will happen but we can be sure of one thing, we are here and we are not going anywhere.

Scorpio New Moon

What’s Your Damage?

 

Scorpio can work with tension. Tonight the tension is between two shadows. Death and rebirth. This may sound like some philosophical pursuit but the scorpion’s way is not one of pontification. This new moon our quest is to feel, to put your hand on the thinning velvet curtain between worlds, and truly initiate yourself into the world of mortality.

With this moon comes a note from Neptune, dissolving of ego, to help us let go of logic and embrace our intuitive senses. With Scorpio’s desire to see the unseen and root up pretension, Neptune steps in with the sensitivity of a psychic, distorting our own vision with the echoes of other’s thoughts. The meaning of things can get lost, paranoia can step in, anger and control can rear. This is an intense combination and many of my sensitive people out there might need a little something to help muffle the voices of their friends and lover’s inner thoughts. Be careful with drinking and drugs around this time.

Neptune is not without it’s compassion. If we want, we can use this energy to discover hope in the frailty of our beliefs. We could allow ourselves to be inspired by resilience against seemingly insurmountable forces. We can accept the affirmation of the bison. All our lives end eventually. We might as well dedicate it to something we believe in.

Mars is slowly walking away from a standoff with Uranus but it still has it’s sights set on the god of the sky during the new moon. It’s time to break out of a situation that doesn’t reflect or support what you’re about. Both Uranus and Mars are all about you and what you want. This makes for a good back up team but not great for moral guidance. While their square is super unstable it is important to pay attention to whether or not you are letting exterior things control your actions. Step up the self-discipline and take control over what you are and what you do. If you can’t do this immediately, choose deliberate action steps to get to right with yourself.

Finally Venus meets up with old man Saturn in the sign of Sagittarius. Harsh. These two work well together when we can be flexible with our bonds of love and friendship. Issues of neglect, feelings of distance and coldness, and maybe an overall feeling of deprivation are strong here. I can see this coming up in our close relationships and even causing temporary or permanent splits between long term relationships. Be wary of making people “prove” their worth right now. Scorpio has an influence of skepticism regarding people’s projections of their identity – which can be healthy in moderation. However, Saturn’s stern affect can levy a disproportionate punishment for bad behavior, especially if this bad behavior is neediness or attention seeking. Remind yourself of who your loved one really is. Give affection to the positive parts of your relationship.

 

I will y’all happy haunting all the days of your wicked lives. ❤