Intuition and Logic

Something feels very critical about this time we share together, doesn’t it? I see you making the mistakes that people make when they are vulnerable and raw. I see you detaching to stay whole, I see you building your reserves, I see your work behind windows. I see careless words hit harder, cut deeper. I see platitudes being passed off for deep thoughts. I know right now we need way way way more than that. I will try my best to be careful and thoughtful with you.

The full moon, at its most basic essence, is a full “illumination” or culmination of events since the new moon. When it comes to Sagittarius this has everything to do making meaning. The ways we come to understand meaning are as vast and diverse as there are minds on this Earth. One of the writers who talks about meaning explicitly is Viktor Frankl who wrote a book about surviving the Holocaust and his search for meaning. What reminds me of him tonight is the simple yet profound concept that we are the authority on the meaning of our own lives. That, while facts lie where they may, we look at them, like coffee grounds or sticks on the floor, and find our own truth within them. His thoughts are also significant here in the light of the seemingly unending trauma that is happening to marginalized people here in the United States and across the globe. That at the same time brilliant and beautiful resistance, art, and thought is being made by those same people. It is also important because the truth belongs to the oppressed. The oppressors are far to invested in holding power to honor truth. We must remember that we make meaning. Sagittarius thinks deeply about these things and the moon governs our emotional lives, making this a time to reckon with distance between heart and mind. This moon can also bring about an emotional conflict concerning the mirroring of our intimate, immediate surroundings and global life. We see the intersection of international politics with the safety of our very own bodies wether it be reproductive rights or the unrelenting antiBlackness that has been socially, economically, and emotionally instituted in our society. We can’t deny the consequences of those in power because they are literally killing us or those we love. The distant becomes intimate. The intimate becomes urgent.  We may struggle with words up to this point. We may not understand how the world can hold so much beauty and pain.

This is the paradox of a thinker and a thinker cannot be rushed. When we are pushed to say something or do something before knowing when and where and how we can neglect important details and later find ourselves asking “how did I get here?”. Sometimes we cannot help it, our hands are forced, we are too tired, we need to eat, want to have fun (and fun is vital!!), or the actions are so tacit or compulsory we forget about our agency. After being told so many times what is and isn’t possible, we can easily forget that we make meaning. Often in these moments of confusion we consult the cards, the gods, the stars, and ultimately ourselves. We reflect. This is important. We must think, and then we must DO, but first we must think. The beauty of Sagittarius is that she knows that thinking is so valuable but is meaningless without action and action without meaning is screaming into a fucking void.

This week, as the moon reflects the bold and curious Gemini sun, we have an opportunity to ask these questions of meaning in a spirit of hope, faith, and embrace the risk of going through life with these as our guiding principles. We can bet on ourselves, on our integrity, our work, our love. What does love mean to you? What brings you hope? What do you have faith in? Then check yourself, does it put love back in to you? Does it have faith in you? Do you embody it’s hope? If not you need to reconsider your shit.

This may seem like common sense to some of you but this age feels intense, like a major transition, like we are moving away from something and towards something else. Are we growing or are we combusting? What is the difference? Could you recognize it if you saw it? The point isn’t to avoid destruction, or mess, or change. When something doesn’t work it needs to fall apart. The point is to live through it. Look at the reality, unflinchingly, look at yourself, compassionately, ask the questions “what do I want most?” AND “how can I be of service?”. Don’t let either answer cancel each other out. Be logical about your true necessities and what you need to be happy and healthy, let your intuition guide you towards a life where that is possible. Know that when you feed yourself, you can feed others, when you are in your power you bring blessings to your people, when you shine we shine.  Wrestle with your exhaustion or let yourself dream a little bit. Catch yourself trying to escape. Choose to let yourself escape. Fall asleep at your desk, in your studio, in a stranger’s bed. Experience catharsis. Experience your body. Experience your sharp edges against the softness of your own wounds. Whatever you choose do, though its a tough time for action, now is a great time to align with your higher self.

Know this paradox: the struggle is an important part on the path to mastery and your only job is to get through the day. Whatever living looks like to you, getting your life or just getting by, live through this.